Everyone is afraid of something. There is that one thing that makes their blood run cold. That makes their heart stop and their breath catch with a sharp inhalation and the thought of
"oh dear lord no"
Your pulse quickens and you grab your chest with the thought that "this is it"
For some people it is spiders, clowns, enclosed spaces.
For me the one thing I feared the most was a cancer diagnosis.
In May of 2011 my biggest fear became my reality. My waking nightmare came to keep me company.It was the phone call that changed my life. It spun me around upside down and every which way but up.
My doctor called with my biopsy results. "Charity, your biopsy came back indicative of papillary thyroid carcinoma. It is a very treatable cancer, but I will need you to come in to discuss having your thyroid removed. Do you have any questions?" I heard my voice squeak out a weak "no" as he passed the phone to his receptionist to schedule my follow up.
Of course I would have questions later... But for now I couldn't think. I was trying to wrap my skull around that word. "Carcinoma"